work work work...

today has had some definite ups and downs.

i spent my morning online shopping for wedding stuff that i had decided on and just hadn't purchased yet (patterns, supplies for making our invitations, etc). it was really exciting. it got me all pumped up for the whole thing... i found someone who would sell me 400 peacock feathers for $73 with shipping! so excited for those to arrive and to make things for the wedding with them. and now i am having all these ideas and i can picture things too. buying things online is the best - i get so excited when i am expecting things in the mail. the wait just kills me, but when i get to rip open the envelope and finally HAVE what i saw pictures of... the best. haha. i could probably develop an online shopping problem if it was possible. luckily i don't have a credit card.

i hung out with andrew today, and we had a good day. he got his L yesterday, so i let him drive us around. i made him come shopping around for tires with me (okay, we only went to two places...). i decided what i was going to do about tires and made the appointment. it bummed me out a little because i was still spending $500. but i instantly felt stress lifted off my shoulders (my current front tires are BALD... it's so sketchy). after that we got something to eat, and went to hang around the mall for a bit. and we got gas. and then we went to the paint store and picked out paint chips for colours to consider for my bridesmaids dresses. he helped me pick the colours that went best together. i still need to cut them all apart so i can decide which shades i want to use with the teals and purples. i am excited for that. i need to SEE it all together so i can make all the necessary decisions.

i arranged for my mom to pick up the car when it was done, dropped her and rhiannon off at dance class, picked up my bike, dropped the car off, and biked to work.

the big DOWN came when the guy from the tire place called me to let me know there was a problem. he had said that if there was a problem with the front end they wouldn't be able to do the wheel alignment today. apparently our steering cage or something is loose and they can't tighten it - keep in mind we spent like $1600 or something fixing our front end earlier this year. the guy told me that all together to do everything would be $850. i wanted to puke. they just put the tires on today and he is giving me the quote on the receipt. i have to get it done or my one front tire will just wear right out again.

so... so far that is my day. i just want to sell that damn car. i hate it. i never even wanted it in the first place. but i have become so accustomed to having a vehicle that it will really suck to go back to NOT having one. not to mention... we're going into winter. and it is supposed to be an especially cold winter this year with lots of snow. not exactly the best season to be carless in. we'll save a lot of money... that's for sure. i want a brand new volkswagen. a city golf! i love them. and they're so reasonable for a brand new vehicle. under 20,000. i wish i could afford to get one. but... i'm stuck being strapped for cash perpetually for the next year at least... is it bad that i would rather skip having a big wedding and buy a car?

i'm just getting more and more stressed out, and my stomach is starting to feel really gross because of it and part of me kind of wants to cry... but i must focus on the good things that happened today and stay calm... at least till i get home from work. then i can go home and do the dishes that tyler pointed out i neglected while i was "sitting around buying shit" this morning.

why can't a day just be all good?