love day and adventures outside my comfort zone.

my valentines day was lovely. i don't typically do much for valentines day. i think it is a silly holiday. so commercial. a day that has turned into girls having ridiculous expectations of their relationships regardless of anything else. people spend so much money, and feel obliged to spend money on silly things. i like showing affection and receiving displays of affection on any old day out of the blue. it feels more special then. less expectations.

but i will admit... i LOVE getting flowers. and i have seldom received flowers in my life... from anyone. the first time i can remember receiving roses was from Layne! he came to visit when i was in grade 12 and came to see closing night of the musical i was in. he had a dozen roses for me after the show. i was really excited. the first year tyler and i were dating i told him i wanted to do nothing for valentines day because i thought it was silly. he had got me a gift... but casually surprised me with it a few days before (it was a journal, which i had told him i needed, covered in black raw silk - its beautiful, and i loved it). he also sent me flowers on valentines day. i loved them.

i decided this year i don't want to make a big deal about NOT doing anything for valentines day - because really... that's just as silly, isn't it? i made a joke to tyler about how i expected flowers and chocolates and dinner and a clean house. he got all panicked. i had to explain that really - i was kidding. i said i wanted to just hang out together and watch one of my favourite movies (but i wouldn't tell him which one it was). although tyler and i often hang out at home together in the evenings, we rarely actually spend time doing something TOGETHER. usually he plays video games with his friends online, and i waste time on the internet, or work on a sewing project, or do dishes or something else that needs doing. tyler came home from work with half a dozen roses, a small box of chocolates (considering my bootcamp diet, haha), a bottle of wine just in case i felt like having some, and groceries. i had to leave shortly later to voicetrack and go to bootcamp with jen (we couldn't go earlier because of her schedule).

when i came home he put together two beautifully plated salads. i love when he really puts effort in when creating meals. he worked in a kitchen when he lived in vancouver and he's really good at it. the salad was soooo good. we sat down with dinner and watched garden state. i LOVE that movie. and i think it is such a sweet quirky love story. it makes me smile, sometimes cry a little... and the end just makes me so happy. the soundtrack is AMAZING. the story is great. the cinematography is so clever. there are so many subtle things that i just LOVE about that movie - if you haven't seen it, watch it!!! after that we were both exhausted, and went to bed. it was a lovely evening.

now for the going out of my comfort zone part of this post... i went to kelowna today to meet with the program director at our sister station there. it was exciting and scary and made me sooo nervous. i start this weekend. i guess the guy just wanted to meet me first? makes sense... if you think about it. the staff there seems really cool. and things are run a little more like most stations (compared to this one... which is an oddball apparently). but it scares me. i haven't ever worked at any other station. the only reason i was able to do my job here is because i was patrick's little project.

i guess a part of me is worried that i don't know enough to do this at another station. i have worked here for like 5 years now? close to, anyway. i know how things work here. not just the equipment, but the people, the office. i understand it. i also have a safety network of sorts, i guess? if something goes wrong... i know what to do. its just... weird. it's a different city too. that has an effect on the job too.

the staff responded really positively to me. the guy who is going to train me on saturday (who also promptly added me to bbm so we could communicate easily and so he can let me in on saturday) told me they have been waiting for me. that they have no ego's. that it's a positive place and they help each other to produce the best broadcast possible. i like the sounds of that. and i like feeling like i am what they were looking for. before i even knew about it, their program director arranged for someone else to take my sunday shift here in vernon so i can do THEIR sunday morning shift in kelowna. i was like... oh... okay. haha. kelowna is a bigger market. and being at another station means more networking. i have a chance to put myself out there. if i do well, i can actually maybe make a name for myself in the industry.

i guess i'll find out this weekend! cross your fingers and think positive thoughts for me!