little bit.

when tyler and i first started talking all the time he sent me the video for this song. we have been friends since i was 15, but there have been periods of time where we didn't talk so much. i mean naturally, we've both done a lot of things that have taken us away from who we were 8 years ago (wow that sounds like a long time....). i was living in calgary. tyler was the first person i ever talked to about how much i thought making a mix cd for someone is a big deal. this was.... just over 3 years ago? he moved back from vancouver and promptly dropped off a mix cd for me. i was in the process of a really tough break up, and rough part of my life in general. tyler was one of the only people i had told that i was going to leave my current boyfriend. it was scary. he helped me. there were feelings there, and we both knew it. the songs on the cd he gave me spoke to me. it was weird. the disc got lost somehow in my many moves, but i can still remember all the songs on it. when i hear them they still hold something special for me.

we went on a couple dates after that, and then he basically dropped off the face of the planet for a little over a year. which was weird, considering he moved back from vancouver and we were both in vernon. vernon isn't very big.

so... this song (lykke li - little bit) was another one that said something to me. he liked me. i knew it. haha. i love this song. its very tyler. i suppose it was a matter of timing. since i was 15 one of us has always had a crush on the other at different points in time, but it was never possible. or just not the right time. i'm not too sure why i'm writing about this, but it just feels like coming out right now i guess.

yesterday was not as productive as i had hoped. haha. i made oatmeal cookies. BUT, in my defense, i forgot that i was going to soak my own beans for the veggie burgers instead of buying a can... so i had to put the beans on to soak. they are soaking now. i'll probably make the burgers tomorrow before work. i was checking out the recipe i plan on using for cinnamon buns. although, i don't have a rolling pin. which will prove to be a challenge. i think i need to get one first or it will be impossible.

i DID go watch the roller derby practice in armstrong though (YES!). i am so joining. haha. i have to wait till next month to order roller skates and all the pads and helmet (money). but i am soooooo excited about it. tyler has been very not stoked on the whole thing, and it was really bothering me. last night when i got home, i finally made him tell me why he couldn't be supportive of me doing something i really want to do. he's scared of me getting beat up. haha. coming home with big bruises and getting hurt. he's funny. always worried about me. we went grocery shopping on tuesday evening between his work and mine. we took the car, cause he said there wasn't enough room in his truck for all the groceries (aka he didn't want to drive...) and so he made me drive. the car is i guess making some sounds when i turn the wheel or something? i didn't even notice. i think he's just used to driving a brand new vehicle now. anyway, he stressed out the entire time we were out because he thinks there is something seriously wrong with the car. he worries that i'm going to be on my way to work one day and it is going to just fall apart on me.

hilarious.

i sent patrick my list of artists and songs that i would like to play. i haven't heard anything back from him, i probably will today. i'm trying not to get too excited about it. although i believe that there is virtually no difference between this music and the music we already play (except that mine is infinitely better and not over played) other than the way it is marketed, i don't think anyone is going to go for it. we'll see, i suppose.