on the verge.

i think that's a title of a song. not sure. whatever. its how i feel. tyler and i are driving to calgary as soon as i am done work tonight. i am REALLY excited. it's my friend gill's birthday. i think i am going to ask her to be my 4th bridesmaid when i see her. its a decision i feel pretty solid about. oh yes, i haven't written in a while, i asked suzanne to be my third. and i felt really good about it. recent events have made my decisions easier. although, i have totally rethought my ideas about colour and what i want them to wear... currently i'm thinking i will make the dresses. and i think i will do them in like a tan/gold colour. i have an idea of what sorts of styles i will make them... but they'll all be different. something that will flatter each one of them.

thanks for all the comments. it does help.

yesterday was a pretty rough day. sarah left. and it was weird. she left the night before. and i had a funny feeling about it. the next morning she texted me and told me that she just stayed at her friend's house and wasn't feeling good. she didn't work. i didn't buy it. and then i got a message a little later saying that she was going back to prince george and joe was on his way to get her. she didn't say goodbye. she didn't say thank you for letting her stay at my house for a month. nothing. i didn't get anything. but a broken door and little pink and brown stains on the carpet.

that's all i will say. because i don't want to get into how i felt and still feel about it. or whatever other details there are. but she is gone. that is that.

i made a new friend in this last week. her name is tori. she is originally from toronto. she is a designer. she does interior design, and also does some design for some skate and surf companies. she's pretty cool. i don't often meet people that i just click with, and her and i really hit it off. she doesn't know a lot of people around here, so i have seen her a few times in the last week. i randomly noticed the other day that we have the same birthday!! how weird is that? the only other person i have met with the same birthday as me is dean's dad... but he doesn't really count. i feel like that has some kind of an explanation as to why tori and i hit it off so well. october the 18th!!

i am excited to be in calgary. to get out of here. especially with how bummed out i have been. it will be good to go and see friends and spend some time with tyler and just HAVE A GOOD TIME! also, we're going to go by the bike shop my friend matt works at and he is going to find tyler and i both some tape for the handlebars of our bikes. i think tyler wants orange. i want bright purple. he already told me he has to order the purple. i was expecting that though. i also want to try and find some JEANS. jeans have been the bane of my existence for the last little while. nothing fits me well. i have been wearing skirts a lot. or jeans i just don't really like... and no one feels good wearing clothes they don't really like.