thoughts and afterthoughts.

today i bought a gym pass. ladies world. i just feel like i need it. you all had very valid points... but i just don't know that i will push myself to get out and be active outside by myself. i don't know that i can do that. the gym almost feels like something new that i have to conquer. it could be really good. it is a fear that i have had (what with people judging me, and me not knowing what i am doing) that i think that i need to deal with. i know it won't be as bad as i might think it could be. the way i feel about it is similar to how i was feeling about going to roller derby. i can do this. i just have to try!!

i did a special spot tonight on roller derby and had a chat with the fresh meat coach (also known as ima bustyouup! haha). it was really exciting because i actually got a call from a woman asking for the information again RIGHT AFTER i finished airing it. i thought that was really cool. you don't often get a response like that - especially not in the evenings. it just means someone was listening to me AND they found my spot interesting! yay!!

there are two more roller derby games happening - june 12th, and june 19th. i get to volunteer with the one on the 12th and be a part of the association which is pretty exciting. i get to sell 50/50 tickets. haha. which isn't a bad job to be assigned because it means i get to walk around, and i actually get to watch part of the bout!! and i get a sweet shirt.

i have finally made a final decision on my colours for the wedding. i want to use peacock feathers, and i found this awesome idea board on a wedding blog using all these beautiful jewel tones and peacock feathers. so the bridesmaids dresses will be slightly varying shades of green, the flower girls will wear BRIGHT teal, and we will accent with purple. i was also thinking it might look cool to have the groomsmen wear purple shirts. and we were contemplating doing grey pants - i have seen a lot of pictures of this and i think it looks cool. different than the standard black dress pants, ya know? i also picked 4 different patterns from the vogue vintage collection - 1 for each of the bridesmaids. i think they will look awesome. so the next step is going to vancouver to scope out wicked cheap fabric and getting all the girls measurements so i can order the patterns. i want to start making them. i will probably make each of the dresses out of muslin first so i don't wreck the real fabric the first time. and that way i can work out any of the tricky things!! i am so excited. everything is starting to come together and work itself out. i think we also worked out the guest list for the dinner - it was really hard to do because we can't have everyone there.

i don't remember if i wrote this on here... but we decided to split the day into 3 portions. the ceremony - will be short, not SUPER formal, just a few chairs, and most people will stand. the dinner - only 100 people, just an intimate dinner with some friends and family and close friends, nothing TOO exciting, probably rather quiet... and then a 'cocktail hour'/reception - the party won't start RIGHT away. everyone will be invited to this part, and this is where we will have the speeches, slide show, and all that fun stuff - so everyone can be a part of it! and then the party/dance will start. yaaay!! i think it works out nicely so that we can keep things small and personal, but considering we both have such huge families, no one gets left out of all the fun stuff. right?

and we picked the song for our first dance. i heard it at work, actually, sunday morning. its an old classic song. timeless, i think. and it isn't something that will go out of style and we won't want to listen to anymore. and its so appropriate. and i think it might be interesting to keep it a secret!! haha... you'll just have to come to the wedding and hear it for yourself i guess!!

that's all for now.